My Mediumship Reading
Hello, to you again, my friend.
This week I had a mediumship reading with the fantastic UK based Psychic Medium – TJ Higgs. It was a great reading, and it was even better meeting TJ. Don’t you love it when you meet someone and hit it off straight away? Her vibe felt like it was resonating on my wavelength instantly.
Lots of great info being passed on to me; the most significant thing was (And this is a running theme with lots of different mediums I meet) is I’m here for a reason. I’m here to help people. My life isn’t for me to live, exist and die!
I get that; it’s a deep knowing I’ve had inside me for as long as I can remember. I’ve been told I’m a natural medium by numerous people. My analytical thinking can block me, though; I shut down the passage to the divine by overthinking.
It is time now, though. Time to start my journey as it should be.
Coming Out My Spiritual Closet
I’ve worked coaching and helping others for a good few years. The last few years I’ve taken a step back though as it wasn’t sitting right with me. There was something that I felt wasn’t right.
I know what that was, and now I’m here to move forward, beyond that. It was the imposter syndrome. I felt like I had to have my shit 100% sorted before I could help others. I mean, yes, of course, you need to walk your talk. Sometimes I can struggle with that. But then who the heck doesn’t?
If you’re looking for the perfect role model or person, then keep looking because it doesn’t exist. I believe that everybody everywhere is just a little bit screwed up. The reason being is we all have strengths, and we all have weaknesses.
We are trying our best to live as a human being in this messed up world while underneath we are spiritual beings of love and light. We are not just meat, flesh and bones. Atheists would disagree, but I know that isn’t the case. I watch how studies of quantum physics and human consciousness are moving along and I’m sure as time goes on science will catch up to what mystics have been saying for thousands and thousands of years.
For me now the time has come to (as TJ worded it) come out of my spiritual closet. It’s time to live my truth and stop being worried about what others think or say. I’ve been coming to this point for quite a long time. I wouldn’t say I give no fucks, because that would just be lying. I would most definitely say that I’m giving a lot fewer fucks. I’m sure as time goes on, I’m sure I will give even fewer fucks.
Talking To My 18 Year Self
If my 41-year-old self could talk to my 18-year-old person, what would I say? It’s a hard one to nail in a few sentences because I’d like to help guide and nurture him along. But in a few words, I would probably say something along the lines of;
“Hello mate, listen, you’ve got a good heart, but sometimes your behavior sucks. There is no need to be so angry. Everything you require in life is within yourself. The world doesn’t owe you anything, and you don’t owe anything to the world.
The more you try to be someone your not, the more anguish you will cause yourself and others. Life is not about being hard, popular or cool. You will find that as you get older, the real skill lies with knowing how to communicate. Knowing how to say what you want and not be scared about the outcome will serve you better than being popular or cool.
Everybody is walking their own path through this life and the only way people can hurt you is if you allow them to. You can study all the self-development you want and keep seeking answers. You can try and become someone else and learn new things, but ultimately the person you look at in the mirror every day is you. Yes, there may be layers on top of that person you are not liking but the eyes in which you see that person is you! No need to be angry, no need to reinvent yourself over and over, because it will always come back full circle to find the person that was in there all along…YOU!
Don’t worry if people think you’re soft. Don’t worry if people think your odd, fat, thin, goofy or anything else. These are all outside influences that can only affect your internal state if you allow it.
Once you start to project who you are from the inside out, then that’s when life becomes much more comfortable. The more you fight against the tide, then the worse the struggle will be. It’s ok to be upset; it’s ok to be let down. These things happen, but ultimately it’s how you deal with all these setbacks. Staying true to your heart is what will keep you aligned and balanced.
You are enough, you are worthy of love, and you are cool just being you the way you are! I love you and having that deep inner self-love will be all the grounding you will ever need”.
This message goes out to anyone and everyone. 19, 29, 49 or 89! You are never too far gone to know you are always enough and behind all the layers of crap, you can be you, as much as you allow yourself to be.
Till next time, take care, all the best.